two shows i follow thought it would be nice to have episodes which talked about life. there's one tree hill where lucas' heart stopped and he was met by a guide in the form of his uncle, and there's 7th heaven where eric camden found himself in heaven and was met by her mother-in-law. these two episodes had the uncanny ability to sort of put life under an electron microscope.
what is life anyway? that question, one of the oldest perhaps, still doesn't have a defeinitive answer. and it will never have one for as long as each of us has the ability to think for our own; each of us will always come up with a different answer. but what are we supposed to make of life? well dear reader, welcome to the world. that's what we are here for. hold on, that's the answer to the first question! what is life? to find out what we're supposed to make of it and do it! there! now, i can die...
in our search for that elusive answer, we fall back to basing our definition of life with the world. well, we live in this world after all. but no matter which way you look at it, our life is bigger than this world. its for the simple reason that if you take away your life, then there is no world for you. so to describe or compare life in terms of the world would be useless. what people do is they compare life with life. but once you do that, you find that you will be bombarded by conscience and moralty. or in simpler terms, what's right and what's wrong. and that perhaps may be the key, to answering the first question. so, what is right and what is wrong.
if you are going to fall back to basing your definition of what's right and what's wrong with the world, then your definition of what's right and wrong is 'its nonexistent'. that there is no right and no wrong in this world. there is only what's (socially) acceptable and (socially) unacceptable. this definition is passable, since that is the reality in this world. but you'll never find your answers if you keep on falling back to the world to answer your questions.
lucas kept asking his uncle what difference does being nice meant. he felt that no matter how good people may be, bad things keep happening to them. so what difference does being good in this world possibly have? why does the world seem so unfair? then, his uncle showed him how the world would have been had he not done this or done that. ok, its a tv show, but its a close enough imitation of life.
eric camden, the reverend, was greeted by people, most of whom he didn't know, upon getting into heaven. and each detailed how it is that his actions had affected them or their loved ones who were still living. some even offered glimpses into the future of good things that'll come to pass just because of his living his life. ok its another tv show, but two tv shows? my, its becoming a more accurate imitation of life.
the things we do have a profoundly great effect on our life and in this world. imagine this, as you were preparing to leave one morning, you remembered that your wallet was still in your room so you went back for it. cause of that, you missed the bus and you muttered out loud your exasperation. the girl standing next to you heard you and couldn't resist smiling. the guy across the street thought the girl was smiling at him. she is pretty cute so he decided to cross the street and approach the girl. but at the very moment he stepped off the curb, a car came around the corner and ran over him. traffic stopped on the street, thereby making you even more late than you originally were. more importantly, the president's convoy became one of the gridlock's casualties. a terrorist took the opportunity and assasinated the president. the country was thrown into chaos, and the a terrorist group took over. ten years later, the country became a powerful terrorist stronghold and thus forced the leader of a powerful nation to nuke the country. its amazing how all of us are intricately woven together, how no matter how far a person might be from another, there is a string of events which could be traced back to that person. and that, my friends, is the real internet.
we do not know for sure whether what we do is right or wrong. there is no standard definition for it is something which is defined in terms of life. so with that in mind, how do we do what's right or wrong? we don't. we just do. we just do AND hope that what we do is right. the world doesn't know hope. we know hope. that's why it can't define right or wrong, cause right and wrong is something that's not worldly. right and wrong is something which is related to our butt cheeks. its guts. you do what your right butt cheek tells you to do.
we must always remember to present our best self forward no matter what. no matter what, we are not living this world just for ourselves. with everything we do, someone else is definitely relying on us. even if you think your an unreachable island in the middle of an ocean. but consciously putting your best self forward is one of the hardest things to do. its like holding your breath, your gonna fail to do so every so often. and thats alright, you're supposed to fail doing it for yourself and as a reminder. but what's important is that you're gonna go back and do it again anyway.
persistence. the persistence to do, and the persistence to hope that what you're doing is right. its essential to have faith in ourselves, once we lose that, everything starts to fail one by one. and with each failure, we become less and less alive, til we become machines- just doing- doing without conviction, and acting without belief.
and perhaps thats what i want to share to you my dear reader. in this world, to strive on doing is what keeps us going, but the insistence upon ouselves to do what we feel to our bones is right is what keeps us living- that despite the seeming fruitlesness of putting our best self forward, despite that raging feeling of being unappreciated just keeps on swelling, despite that all the good you muster within you to share around you and yet bad things still happen to those undeserving of such, and that despite sadness, anxiety and selfishness fill this world to the brim, you are still there- doing good, never wavering, still hoping.
and if you are succesful in doing so, i congratulate you. you have acheived what most of us down here, finding our way, could only dream of doing. your help is appreciated, but it will only be in vain. we can't be shown the way, we have to find it for ourselves. but please believe in us, believe in each and everyone of us, that one day we will also find our way, then one day, we will find our way, hopefully before we die.
we too wanna live forever.
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